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Scared to be alone
Author’s note: This was the first solo that I’ve written so it’s not the best qualityI'ᗰ ᔕᑕᗩᖇᕮᗪ TO GᕮT ᑕᒪOᔕᕮ ᗩᑎᗪ I ᕼᗩTᕮ ᗷᕮIᑎG ᗩᒪOᑎᕮ.
I ᒪOᑎG ᖴOᖇ TᕼᗩT ᖴᕮᕮᒪIᑎG TO ᑎOT ᖴᕮᕮᒪ ᗩT ᗩᒪᒪ.
Tᕼᕮ ᕼIGᕼᕮᖇ I GᕮT, Tᕼᕮ ᒪOᗯᕮᖇ I'ᒪᒪ ᔕIᑎK. I ᑕᗩᑎ'T ᗪᖇOᗯᑎ ᗰY ᗪᕮᗰOᑎᔕ, TᕼᕮY KᑎOᗯ ᕼOᗯ TO ᔕᗯIᗰ.“Feel something.”He had said that to himself for days, weeks, months or maybe years. He didn't know. He had always felt empty on the inside. There was darkness and no light.There was a reason that his eyes were black. You could see the soul he didn't have, you could see the emptiness. It was the price that his father had made him pay. Being faster and stronger than a Shadowhunter but not having a soul. He didn't feel anything.He opened his eyes. He had been laying in one of the fields in Idris. The sun was shining that day but Sebastian was still cold from inside. He sat up. Someone was coming. Who could it be?He stood up and looked around. He saw a girl. She was still a child. She was probably around the age of 8. She had black hair and brown eyes. He smirked. This would be fun.He walked over to her and went on his knees so he was around the same height as the girl.“Are you alone?”The girl nodded and she looked scared.“I'm lost.”Sebastian's eyes lit up for a second. She was the perfect victim. He whispered in her ear.“Run if you want to stay alive.”He could see the fear in her eyes when he stood up. The girl started to run as fast as she could. Sebastian gave her a minute before he ran after her. He felt excitement. The hunt had started. The girl ran to the forest. Sebastian dodged the trees while he's running. He was getting closer. The girl noticed it too and started to call for help.“Help! Someone help me! He wants to kill me!”He could hear the fear and desperation in her voice but he knew that no one would come. No one would help her. She was the lamb and he was the lion.He was almost there. He pinned the girl against the tree and grabbed a silver knife.“Please don't.”Begged the girl.“Please let me stay alive.”Sebastian smirked.“I'm sorry but your time is up.”He cut her throat with the knife and the blood started to flow, making her white dress dirty. The light disappeared from the eyes of the girl and the same happened to Sebastian's excitement. It was gone.“NO!”He yelled. The body of the girl fell on the ground. Sebastian didn't feel regret. He felt nothing. The emptiness was back. He would only feel something if he killed someone...“WHY? WHY ME!”He yelled. It was disgusting that he had to be a murderer to feel something. To make make him feel alive. He fell on the ground and felt defeated. What had he ever done to deserve this?ᑕᗩᑎ YOᑌ ᕼᕮᗩᖇ Tᕼᕮ ᔕIᒪᕮᑎᑕᕮ?
ᑕᗩᑎ YOᑌ ᔕᕮᕮ Tᕼᕮ ᗪᗩᖇK?
ᑕᗩᑎ YOᑌ ᖴI᙭ Tᕼᕮ ᗷᖇOKᕮᑎ?
ᑕᗩᑎ YOᑌ ᖴᕮᕮᒪ... ᑕᗩᑎ YOᑌ ᖴᕮᕮᒪ ᗰY ᕼᕮᗩᖇT?
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I am Sebastian Morgenstern
Author’s note: This was the second solo that I’ve written so it’s not the best qualityTW: mention of psychical abuseNo one has ever loved me since the day I was born. My mother knew that something was wrong from the second that she saw me, that she saw my eyes, my black eyes. She had screamed. She didn't want to hold her child, her first born, her son.When she left my father she left me behind as well. She abandoned me. She didn't care enough about me to take me with her. She probably didn't care about me at all. Maybe she had been happy when she left without me. Maybe she had thought that she had finally got rid of that monster. That thing. That abomination.My father? I think that he has never seen me as his son. A soldier? Yes. A creature that he should love? No. A monster? Yes. He had told me that many years ago, when I was just a child. I think of it every single day. No one could love a monster like you. Your mother will never come back for you. It's cruel to say that to a child.I knew why my father hated me. Because I was exactly what my father created me to be. Cruel, merciless, manipulative. The ultimate soldier under his command. Yet, my father had decided to whip me often with demon metal, to remind me of the 'perils of obedience'. Now I walked around with a scarred back because of that.My sister? She hates me since the day she found out my true identity. She thinks that I'm a monster, just like everyone else does. I know that she has the desire to kill me. But one day she will love me. I will make sure of that. I will teach her to love me. No matter how hard it is, no matter how much time it will take. She will love me. She will rule at my side one day. Together we will watch the world burn.I'm the monster. I'm the unwanted son. I'm the hated brother. I'm the psychopath with the twisted mind. I have nothing to lose.Echromai
I am coming
Veni
I have comeI am Sebastian Morgenstern and I will burn down this world.
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Double-edged sword
TW: Shattering glass, mention of bloodSebastian was looking at himself in the mirror that was in his room. Everyone saw his reflection differently.His father had seen him as a soldier, as a weapon that he had created. Something that could be used. His mother had seen him as an abomination. As something that shouldn’t have existed. As unloveable.The shadowhunters saw him as a criminal. His sister saw him as.... He wasn’t sure. Maybe she saw him as a monster too but he hoped that she saw him as someone that was worth saving. As someone that could be redeemable.No one had ever asked Sebastian what he saw when he looked at himself in the mirror. When he looked at his own eyes he saw something tainted. When he looked at his blond hair he saw something that could’ve been. If he looked at the full picture he saw a boy that had been traumatised and unloved. A boy that didn’t get a chance to become a good person. No one had believed that was an option. No one had believed in him. No one would believe in him.If he had been raised differently perhaps he could’ve been loved. Perhaps not everyone would’ve seen him as evil. But that was only a what if. It wouldn’t happen.Sebastian made a fist and hit the mirror as he screamed of anger. The glass shattered and became a bit bloody. A few, rare tears ran over his face as he looked at his reflection again. It was bloody, broken, angry and sad. It was the real Sebastian.